Hiding.

A smile is a curve that sets everything straight. But when things happened, one after another without giving you the time to heal or forget them, you just can't bear the burden, you tried to smile as usual like nothing happened but you can't hide it. Your smiles can lie but not your eyes. Only those who truly love you will realize that. This is not the time to give up or let the things destroy everything. Just a little bit more. Keep swimming cause you're nearly reaching the surface. No matter how much it has been, everything is a test from HIM. The more you hurt, the more HE loves you. 

''No fatigue, no disease, no sorrow, no saddness, no hurt, no distress befalls a Muslim, even if it was the prick he receives from a thorn, but that HE expiates some of his sins for that'' (Sahih Al-Bukhari)

** Friends are measured by the times they say the right things to you. Not by the times they say you're right.

** I trust people easily especially friends. I shared every single things with my friends when i trust them, from all the big problems to all the little things even when my ipod is not working they will be the ones that i will     tell. 

** Thank you Allah for sending me person/s that keep reminding me when I feel like I have no one to trust anymore. At least I know that there are still people out there one or two, or more that I can trust.

**Blessed** 

Strangers.

Again. Too much things to write and I ended up writing nothing here cause I'm too busy writing my final year research. Too much things I want to share about things that happened between us. Things that hurt me. Things that made me cried a lot.Things that turned me into a different person. Things that taught me how to play fire with fire when I'm too tired playing snow with fire (just because snow is more delicate than water if you get what i mean). Things that made me want to forget all the memories of friendship that we had. But yeah, now I only have to keep telling myself that things happen for a reason. People come and leave. And who knows they might come and look for you again when they realized how important you're in their lives. The only thing that I can share now is how difficult it is for me to act like a stranger and to be treated like a stranger, how I miss all the good times we had and how hard it is for me to give the fake smiles pretending that nothing had ever happen just because I don't want to hurt others cause I know the feeling of being treated like that. I want to share more but the elective and all those papers are shouting, calling me to read and write them up. Sometimes when the life is so busy, I forget how to laugh and how to smile but I will keep trying to live a life and keep breathing. Always ...

Soundless sakura.

You've built your wall so high that no one could climb it. 

*** I just realized that I havent update anything on everything since the last post i wrote. Just too busy living a life i guess.

*** It's FOUR weeks before the final exam  and THREE and HALF months before going back home.

A white love story of mine.

20th June 2013: Travelling in a white magic world, somewhere in Lawrence, Central Otago.

A classic town, Arrowtown.

In the middle of nowhere.

'' If man wishes to be sure of the road he treads on, he must close his eyes and walk in the dark ''

Like a fairy tale ;)

It's 13 of July and 3rd of Ramadhan. 

Alhamdulillah, my fourth and final ramadhan here insyaAllah. 

Alhamdulillah, everything was just fine during the break; trips, community placement, Bersatu Games 2013, etc etc.

Alhamdulillah, I had the chance to experience such a beautiful white fairy tale story. 

Alhamdulillah HE showed me what I should know for the mind to think and for the heart to feel.

Alhamdulillah, the heart knows what it really wants. 

It's the end of the Winter break, two more days to go before I start the final semester, yes FINAL semester.

All the best Fairuz!

Rama-rama

Life is too short to whine about everything.

Grow up and act like an adult cause you're not a kid anymore. 

It's 1st of Syaaban, a month before Ramadhan. The time is flying too fast :/

Butterflies, stop fluttering. My tummy is too small for you to flutter around. Get out of it and fly. Freely. The world is beautiful and dont hide yourselves from it. 

Tomorrow is the last paper, the oral exam and I'll be done. Done with the second last semester. 

*Fluttering*

Silently Falling.

 It snowed on 28th May 2013 :)

The day before snowing.

The Cargill St

Snow or no snow, life must go on and keep going on :)

To the person that used to be my friend, thank you for making me hating you more than I already do. You know who you are.

To you, yes you, thank you for being there.

To the man that I love the most, get well soon. I'm sorry for not being there. Like you said, I'm coming home soon. I miss you father.

The most painful moment is when your beloved one is in pain (literally), you're not there to feel and share the pain at least and the only thing you can do is praying, praying and keep praying and of course you can't stop crying. You're here but your heart and mind are not here. Yeah, I'm in pain too.

It is 2 days before the final exam for this semester and 13 days before the Winter break.

2 and a half seasons to go and I'll be home insyaAllah. Counting and keep counting.

The inner joy of the falling leaves.

Bakal dirindui ...

'' Autumn wins you best by this, its mute. Appeal to sympathy for its decay. ''