A shooter.

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Feel good after throwing the ball here and there. Feel good after running and jumping all over the court to shoot the ball. Feel good because it's weekend :)

14 hours outside the house was violently tiring. Classes, labs and test one after another in a day *die* . It has been quite sometime i haven't play netball. The last time was three weeks ago? It has been very busy and i just don't have time to go to Unipol. Plus, the new Unipol is very far from my mahligai indah on York Place. sigh. But today alhamdulillah i made it. yay *clap clap* Playing netball makes me forget everything. When i'm in the court with the ball in my hands, i throw the ball, i throw away the problems at the same time. Run. Jump. Catch. Focus. Shoot. Then i feel free. Free from the wordy world. Words full of lies.

Bersatu Games 2011

Resting ...

bye.

Al Humazah

They will never stop.

Never stop slandering.

Backstabbing.

I hate them.

I swear.

Don't blame me if I don't give you even a single bit of my smile.

Full stop.

Hyperglycaemic.

Meringue Chocolate Mousse Berry Torte!

Spending my weekend baking! It has been a month I let my baking box unopened. And now I feel like a bear in winter time. Eating everything that I want for these two days. The kitchen smelt yummy butter cream and delicious burnt meringue yesterday *hyperglycaemic* but I'm feeling good :)

Alhamdulillah I'm done with my job as a Secretary of Kelab UMNO Otago. I feel relieved passing the responsibility to someone that I trust (maybe). Hopefully they will continue our jobs successfully.

But i still worried about what is happening to our people here. I mean the clubs/organisations. They are separated. Become further and further away from each other. Using people's money for granted. Doing things without discussing with others. Unorganised. Irresponsible. Hating each others. Arguing. Why T_T

I'm sad. I can't do anything. Who am I to advice or remind someone who is older than me or someone who's having more 'power'. sigh.

Well, the only thing I can say is, be responsible in what we're doing. I'm not a perfect person which is responsible in every single thing that I do but I'm trying and I will always try. InsyaAllah.

Now it's time for me to do things that I like. To spend my time accordingly. To play what I want. To join things that I like. To work on the goals that I want to achieve this year. To bake sweet bakes (as usual) . The most important thing is, to be someone. A person.

I want to share some lyrics from a song With You by Raef (Christ Brown cover ) Very meaningful and cute lyrics i can say :)

Wish I was smarter, when I was younger

Found something better made me a winner and

I'm so glad to be Yours

It's my life that you own

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I'm into You my Lord

No one else would do

With every test you put me through

the miracles you help me do

and i know i can't be the only one

i bet there's hearts all over the world tonight

with the love of their life

who feel what i fee i am

with you with you with you ya Rahman

with you with you with you ya Raheem

With You. Always :)

Alive.

One month. I'm still alive. Baking again.

Rugby vs Ballet

I'm not a big big fan of rugby game, but it doesn't mean that i hate it. I didn't have the opportunity to watch Rugby World Cup 2011 (once in 4 years) which was held here in New Zealand because it happened during exam periods last year. sigh. 2 weeks ago on 3rd of March i went to watch a rugby match at the Forsyth Barr Stadium. The match was between Highlanders team (Otago team) and Crusaders team (Canterbury team). Some people say we're wasting our money & time, well for me as long as i use my own money and i'm not doing something that can harm myself etc etc, it should fine. Because i know my own limits better than others :)

That's how i look like when watching rugby.

Blue vs Red

I don't have a flexible body. I am a piece of wood. I'm not a ballerina. I am someone who likes to watch stories that make me smile. Ballet is one of them. Ballet is like a play. It takes more concentration to understand because there are no words. You must interpret the story behind it by the music and the movements of the dancers. I love watching the beautiful ballerina's dresses , the soft swan-like dance, their smiles and the way they show their feelings through dancing. I just can't stop smiling watching ballet. I felt like I'm in a fairy tale world full of stories.

And this is how i look like when watching ballet.

Somehow i love this picture so much. A Stranger among Strangers.

With her, rain-soaked kitten .

So yep this is how i spend my time to relieve my stress and blow away my homesickness :)

bye.

Key.

It's not easy. It's getting harder and tougher.
Must always be prepared.
Be prepared!

----- breathing -----

ps: Oh paediatric patients, why so hard to calculate dosage and dispense extemporaneous drugs for you. Why you guys are so sensitive? Why cannot this. Why cannot that. You make my life so complicated kiddies.

Okay need to stop bebel-ing. i will try my best not to overdose or kill you kiddos!

3rd week of school: Patiently waiting for the weekend to come. Watching ballet, kutip-ing mussels at the beach, what else?what else? ee cant wait to finish this looong weekdays!

47:7

'' O you who believe! If you help (in the cause) of Allah, He will help you and make your foothold firm ''

Behaviour changes.

Apart from trying to change my behaviour which is not to skip breakfast every morning, i think i'm having other behaviour changes as well.

I realized that I've changed for the past few days (i think already for few weeks?) I can't hear people saying bad things about me. i can't put up any more when people mad or laughing at me without any reasons or trying to provoke me or anything that make me go crazy. I hate people forcing me doing things that I don't want or hate to do. I just easily get grumpy. Maybe it's the period of the month. But usually if it's the period of the month (red flag moment) yes i will easily get angry but i don't really show it. Normally, its just a wee bit of weird changes.

But now, it's different. I always trying to fight back. I hit back their words with my own.I try to keep my decision as mine and won't be changed by others.

There was one time that I never believed I will do it in my whole life. Last week, when I was working my boss was angry at me and he said why i worked very slow. When i answered his question he said ' oh menjawab sekarang. I said without thinking ' this is not an answer, this is a statement' You know what, this is the first time in my life saying that kind of things and being so rude to someone which is older than me. I'm sorry. I just cant take it anymore when people provoke me.

True. I've changed. I'm tired. Tired of just taking it all.

Please bear with my changes like i always putting up with everything.

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Second week of school has ended. Getting busier with reports,classes,labs,tutorials.

It has been few weeks i let my baking box unopened. I miss baking.

Physically,mentally and heartily tired ...

I found this picture somewhere on internet. I don't have time to bake,but it's enough to make me smile by just looking at it. Beautiful :)

Bye.