Jumping.

Keep jumping as higher as you can. further and further.

The only thing that comes across my mind is giving up when i'm tired and  when i feel i can't do the thing that i thought i can . How ungrateful i am aye?  If there are drugs out that can cure this feeling, i think i would be overdosed many many times. i need to be strong as strong as an iron woman, keep do'a-ing and keep moving forward. Keep walking through the path that i've chosen (the thing that i always tell myself to do whenever i feel giving up) It was strange for me and it is still strange but yet getting closer. It's hard but it's not impossible :) Hang in there. I know the time is flying too fast. But, keep your head up! InsyaAllah you can do it. You can do it  cik siti payung :') (i miss people calling me this.i miss you people).

So far away from where you are

And standing underneath the stars

And i wish you were here....

[From where you are b Lifehouse]

Jatuh.

Even the seasons are changing. Falling once doesnt mean you'll be falling forever. Remember there's always a hand that you can hold to. 

Comel lote.

Only the Comel Lotes see the comel lotes painting of Universe and capture it to present the comel lotes for all to appreciate :-) (Uncle Lie)

*Blush blush*

It has been a while, Alhamdulillah :) Keep breathing Fairuz! 

Sunrise at 7am on Monday, 23 April 2012, taken from my place, York Place.

Productive weekend.

Enjoyed the health carnival dunedin 2012 organized by malaysian's clubs here. I'm not a committee anymore but  i have to bake for the day and also one of the students taking care of the booth. We had booths from each school (Med school, Pharm school,Dent school, Anat school) and each of the booth will exhibit their 'careers' and give consultation about their fields. Like giving health,dental,blood check up and for pharmacy booth, we gave consultation about drugs,ADR (adverse drug reactions), etc etc etc. Fuh fuh kurus semangat when people came and asked me all those questions that i don't really know. Well you can't expect much from a P3 like me. Haha :p Enjoyed the games and meeting new people. Alhamdulillah :)

Do I look like a drug expert?Or a drug dealer?

That's exactly my 'career'. Baking!

Mood: Election. Hahaha.

Think before 'undi' because the decision is in your hands. 

Peace No War :)

Sleeping beauty.

The sleeping beauty.(Obviously not me :p)

The awkward moment is when you're sleeping and dreaming in class while smiling and the lecturer spotted you while calling you but you don't realize it. Have you ever experienced that? I had! Well it wasn't the first time i slept in class. I always do sleep in class, even in tutorial. My friend always wake me up when i sleep but she's not sitting beside me today, too bad. Usually the lecturers won't  do anything if  i sleep while they give lectures.In tutorial, i always sit in front of the tutorial room and right in front of the tutor. When i sleep he never ever wake me up. But he will say ' yeah i know our tutorial is a wee bit longer, sorry about that' LOL. And today kantoi! Dalam kelas pulak tu. In lecture theatre with the whole class. I was happily sleeping smilling alone dreaming of something and when i opened my eyes, guess what? Everyone was looking at me and laughing and the lecturer was calling me and waving few times! ' Helooooooo are you alright over thereeeee?!' and i realized he was calling me when everyone already spotted me. Oh my oh my *faint*. What do you expect, it was Friday, the last class for the week and it was 1pm in the afternoon. sigh.But, the good thing is, hehe *muka gatal*, abe (abe kiwi not malaysian) asked me what did i do and he was laughing too. Oh my! *heart dropped to the ground*.Blushed!The moral of the story, don't dream if you sleep in class. lecturer won't wake you up if you're sleepy but they do if you're smiling while sleeping because they think something is wrong with his/her student! Peace :p

The not sleeping beauty who sleeps anywhere she wants.

(picture of two years ago during college's ball)

Bye! 

When my facebook is dead ...

Deactivate facebook for a while. I feel like I live in a jungle knowing nothing without it. How powerful the facebook is now. It's okay, I've asked my friend to update me anything important in facebook, i mean class's/ group's updates etc etc. 

I won't reactivate it at the moment. Reasons? I'm not into being descriptive in telling people about it because too many things to be told. I know things will not end but at least let them be silent first. I'm not a kind of person that loves to block/unfriend people on facebook but when it comes to stuffs like this, i won't hesitate to do it. Normally i just hide or unsubscribe people. Yeah I know how easy it is to not be friend/end realationship with someone on facebook isn't it.It is even harder when it involves someone that i trust.I won't do it. so yes i deactivated mine rather than blocking you so called trusted people. 

And now, without facebook, i started to do stuffs that i never done like editing pictures. I know i know. yeah true i don't like editing pictures but just for fun anyway. After editing few photos i feel like, hmm cantik jugak. True memang cantik pun. But i like unedited pictures more than edited ones. The beauty look more natural  and they have more meanings/values (personal opinions :p ) . cewaah sangat. 

Lets have a look at the products from someone that never like to edit photos!

They are so fancy aren't they?  ;)

Okay bye :)

Autumn break pastries.

This is what happened when I have too much homework.Baking pastries too much! 

Sausage Quiche

filling : spinach, onions, sausages, eggs, cream/milk, mustard, seasoning (salt,sugar) and grated cheese on top!

My biggest apple pie ever.

filling: apples,walnut,brown sugar, cornstarch, ground cinnamon

Chicken pie for a friend's birthday.

filling: spinach, onions, chicken, cream, eggs, cornstarch, herbs, seasoning (salt,sugar)

My three cute little pumpkins from farmers market! 

Baked with salt and pepper sprinkled inside.

I woke up very late around 10.30am because of the 'oil burning' last night. so i ponteng kerja. Felt guilty but actually it was a yay. I went to farmers market. Ala-ala pasar tani la kalau kat malaysia. I love to go to farmers market buying fresh flowers, fresh vegetables and fruits, watching people singing in the middle of the crowd, seeing pak cik dan mak cik selling cute stuffs .... i just love farmers market so much. I can't stop smiling every time i'm there. because it reminds me of home. my father always brought me to pasar tani every friday back in Kelantan. Syukran ya Allah for giving me this to remind me of my home and them :)

Chill chilly lilly

Spent my day outside and went into all the shops along the George St trying to release my tension. Konon konon wanted to do my work at the library but ended up at the town after having group discussion.I couldn't do my work since last night. They're still talking. Still making stories about stuffs that i never done. I guess i can't trust anyone.no one.and i feel i have no place any more to share my problems. Having a chronic homesickness. A friend of mine said my life is full of dramas after sharing this with him (he always be a place that i tell my problems and i trust him). I went to supermarket and walked through all the shelves. I bought a punnet of grapes, three bottles of juices & three mangoes. sour fruits make me feel better. and a scarf at Number One Shoes shop. Luckily my friend accompanied me and stop me. if not i would buy everything in the supermarket! grr.

Back to my sad stories, i seriously can't put up with this any longer. It happened again. Heavy head. My blood boiled up to more than 100 degree Celsius.What have i done wrong to you guys :'(  I thought they will stop doing this if i avoid seeing them,blocking them in facebook and exclude myself from them and all the social activities but no.They're still playing with my dignity.  I don't understand why highly educated people studying Phd,masters etc etc are doing this kind of things. Why don't they use their brilliant brains to help people, talk something good, bla bla bla. God gives us the gifts that others do not have,appreciate it and use it wisely to differentiate between what is right and what is wrong. Use brain before you talk. It's not that hard isn't it?

I tell you what, i will never forgive if they don't come see me and ask for forgiveness and clear my name among them. I've never felt so angry in my life until i don't want to forgive people like this. never. bravo you guys have changed me. 

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This is what happen when you sent your homework to heaven while holiday-ing happily ...

2 more days before the school starts again. and i have 3 reports to finish and few other assignments.Cool Fairuz. Cool. (trying to calm myself down)but the reality is i'm like goshhh what should i do >< what should i do?!which one should i finish first. oh no i lost my lab results for one of the reports. heeeelppp! *putting up hands*tarik.hembus.tarik.hembus.tarik tak hempus hembus *faint*.okay lets try again.tarik.hembus.tarik.hembus *breathing calmly*.now, lets burn the oil and set the fire!!

The yellow land

'Autumn is the second Spring where every leave is a flower' (Albert Camus)

Spider web among the lights among the leaves. 

Fragile Dandelions.

The world is the reflection of yourself.

My place in the world.

Keep flowing.

Dried but alive.

Alhamdulillah had a very very relaxing break. 

Visited mama Janice at out of town,kampung Roxburgh with a best friend of mine for three days.

No phone. No internet. No homework (actually i have 3 reports to finished,but well...) No nothing.

Just me and the nature . 

Humbled by the God's creations :)

i've discovered lots of things in Roxburgh, a very small pekan which i spent my two previous summer working there. Never thought the small town has so much things/places that i never ever discovered before.

Looking forward to visit kampung again during next winter break to see the yellow land turns white.

insyaAllah.

93 Million Miles

93 million miles from the Sun,people get ready get ready

cause here it comes it's light, a beautiful light, over the horizon into our eyes

oh my beautiful mother, she told me ''son, in life you're gonna go far and if you you do it right you'll love where you are

just know that whenever you go you can always come back home

240 thousand miles from the Moon we've come a long way to belong here

to share this view of the night a glorious night over the horizon is another bright sky

oh my  irrefutable father, he told me 'son sometimes it may seem dark,but the absence of the light is of the light is a necessary part.

just know you're never alone you can always come back home

every road is a slippery slope

there is always a hand that you can hold on to

looking deeper through the telescope 

you can see that you home's inside you

Just know that wherever you go no you're never alone you can always get back home

93 million miles from the Sun people get ready get ready 

cause here it comes it's a light a beautiful light over the horizon into you eyes...

Can't stop myself from clicking the replay button again again. a beautiful song with meaningful lyrics that fill my eyes with tears. missing. missing home.