Hiding.

A smile is a curve that sets everything straight. But when things happened, one after another without giving you the time to heal or forget them, you just can't bear the burden, you tried to smile as usual like nothing happened but you can't hide it. Your smiles can lie but not your eyes. Only those who truly love you will realize that. This is not the time to give up or let the things destroy everything. Just a little bit more. Keep swimming cause you're nearly reaching the surface. No matter how much it has been, everything is a test from HIM. The more you hurt, the more HE loves you. 

''No fatigue, no disease, no sorrow, no saddness, no hurt, no distress befalls a Muslim, even if it was the prick he receives from a thorn, but that HE expiates some of his sins for that'' (Sahih Al-Bukhari)

** Friends are measured by the times they say the right things to you. Not by the times they say you're right.

** I trust people easily especially friends. I shared every single things with my friends when i trust them, from all the big problems to all the little things even when my ipod is not working they will be the ones that i will     tell. 

** Thank you Allah for sending me person/s that keep reminding me when I feel like I have no one to trust anymore. At least I know that there are still people out there one or two, or more that I can trust.

**Blessed** 

Strangers.

Again. Too much things to write and I ended up writing nothing here cause I'm too busy writing my final year research. Too much things I want to share about things that happened between us. Things that hurt me. Things that made me cried a lot.Things that turned me into a different person. Things that taught me how to play fire with fire when I'm too tired playing snow with fire (just because snow is more delicate than water if you get what i mean). Things that made me want to forget all the memories of friendship that we had. But yeah, now I only have to keep telling myself that things happen for a reason. People come and leave. And who knows they might come and look for you again when they realized how important you're in their lives. The only thing that I can share now is how difficult it is for me to act like a stranger and to be treated like a stranger, how I miss all the good times we had and how hard it is for me to give the fake smiles pretending that nothing had ever happen just because I don't want to hurt others cause I know the feeling of being treated like that. I want to share more but the elective and all those papers are shouting, calling me to read and write them up. Sometimes when the life is so busy, I forget how to laugh and how to smile but I will keep trying to live a life and keep breathing. Always ...

Soundless sakura.

You've built your wall so high that no one could climb it. 

*** I just realized that I havent update anything on everything since the last post i wrote. Just too busy living a life i guess.

*** It's FOUR weeks before the final exam  and THREE and HALF months before going back home.