Breathless.

I feel like I'm drowning in a wide sea. I'm trying to swim and go up to the surface. But the more I swim, the more i feel breathless. No matter how hard I'm trying I still can't reach the surface. I don't want to swim because I know the thing that is waiting for me at the surface is not what I want. But I'm forcing myself because swimming is the only way for me to survive ...

Next week:
Two essays to be submitted (Not yet finished & <---- what ??)
One report to be submitted.
My Dispensing final exam??

My heart beats so fast until I can't feel that it is beating. Less than one month to go before final exams. But I still haven't start reading or revising anything yet. Too many things to be submitted each week T_T and too many things to study until I don't know which one should I start working on O_o...