Spent my day outside and went into all the shops along the George St trying to release my tension. Konon konon wanted to do my work at the library but ended up at the town after having group discussion.I couldn't do my work since last night. They're still talking. Still making stories about stuffs that i never done. I guess i can't trust anyone.no one.and i feel i have no place any more to share my problems. Having a chronic homesickness. A friend of mine said my life is full of dramas after sharing this with him (he always be a place that i tell my problems and i trust him). I went to supermarket and walked through all the shelves. I bought a punnet of grapes, three bottles of juices & three mangoes. sour fruits make me feel better. and a scarf at Number One Shoes shop. Luckily my friend accompanied me and stop me. if not i would buy everything in the supermarket! grr.
Back to my sad stories, i seriously can't put up with this any longer. It happened again. Heavy head. My blood boiled up to more than 100 degree Celsius.What have i done wrong to you guys :'( I thought they will stop doing this if i avoid seeing them,blocking them in facebook and exclude myself from them and all the social activities but no.They're still playing with my dignity. I don't understand why highly educated people studying Phd,masters etc etc are doing this kind of things. Why don't they use their brilliant brains to help people, talk something good, bla bla bla. God gives us the gifts that others do not have,appreciate it and use it wisely to differentiate between what is right and what is wrong. Use brain before you talk. It's not that hard isn't it?
I tell you what, i will never forgive if they don't come see me and ask for forgiveness and clear my name among them. I've never felt so angry in my life until i don't want to forgive people like this. never. bravo you guys have changed me.
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This is what happen when you sent your homework to heaven while holiday-ing happily ...
2 more days before the school starts again. and i have 3 reports to finish and few other assignments.Cool Fairuz. Cool. (trying to calm myself down)but the reality is i'm like goshhh what should i do >< what should i do?!which one should i finish first. oh no i lost my lab results for one of the reports. heeeelppp! *putting up hands*tarik.hembus.tarik.hembus.tarik tak hempus hembus *faint*.okay lets try again.tarik.hembus.tarik.hembus *breathing calmly*.now, lets burn the oil and set the fire!!
Whoa, it seems like I could really feel your anger and frustration.
ReplyDeleteSabar ye Fairuz. I dunno what happened but one common advice would be
'Everything that happened to us, 'is happening' to us and 'is going to happen' to us had been destined and perfectly planned for us by Allah the MOST Perfect'.
Mungkin sekarang tak nampak lagi hikmah tu tapi satu hari nanti MESTI akan nampak jugak, ataupun kita sendiri rasa dan reflect.
Even in surah al-Insyirah, Allah had stated repeated this
'So verily, when there's difficulty, there's relief'.
'Verily, when there's difficulty, there's relief'.
Have faith in Him yes? He would want you to have faith in Him :)
IT's like, if you watch any Japanese medical drama (eg: Team Medical Dragon) and there's this genius unorthodox doctor whose actions are being doubted by others who could not see what he actually intended to do, those who have doubts about the outcome of his actions. But of course, the doctor knows what he's doing and everything turns out all right in the end.
Everything's gonna be okay in the end. :)
Right now, just concentrate on your studies! Study for the sake of the Ummah! When studies become our main priority, other measly stuffs will seem insignificant. That's what I'm practising right now. :D
Cheer up!
Salam from Malaysia ^__^
Like! Thank you xoxo ;)
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