A year has gone.

Assalamualaikum wbt. 

I know, it s been too long since the last time i wrote my last post, exactly  a year ago. Wait, a YEAR?Too many things happened when i was in my final year and i just couldn't write them up here. But anyway, let bygone be bygone isn't it? A year has passed and alhamdulillah thanks to The Almighty, despite everything happened, I managed to finish my studies and graduated in Bachelor of Pharmacy from the Pharmacy School, University of Otago, New Zealand. Thank you to those who always being there for me through thick and thin throughout the journey of my studies. Although my parents couldn't be there during my special day, but they still could watch me live from the graduation hall online, thanks to the live update video from the university. Here you go, some moments captured during the day :) 

Favourite among other photos captured ;) Was proudly wearing classic baju kebaya (tempah online okeh, effort tau all the way from Sarawak to Dunedin gitew), shoes from Farmers, tudung pinjam housemate punya, dokoh (the accessory) from Lovisa jew and yeah express make up by my sister (all the way from Msia!) :P *FEELING PRETTY* hiks.

Bajet sikit pose nye :P

My place in the world, thank you for the awesome four years of experience. I've missed you a lot. Yes A LOT :')

Walking proudly with our regalia on along the George St (Uni Otago's a MUST ceremony during graduation) with the sweet hearts, those that always with me and being there through thick and thin. Miss you girls heaps :(

Ihiks, yep that s me! Walking awkwardly cause the red carpet was too fluffy -__- (patut letok tikar getoh jah eh dok? heh )

Ended up the special day at the Botanical Garden for some photo shoots without make up and heels. Natural beauty kononya hahah :)

So yeah, that s wrapped up my graduation stories. Few other things to be shared here especially my fantastic graduation trip to Australia with my travelling buddy cik Az (nama sebenar cuma dipendekkan- we called this privacy :P), my last trip in NZ with my sister and yeah, the last moments in NZ when i was counting the days to come back home for good. But not now, soon insyaAllah yeah? :D

And now, I'm back in my own country for good since Christmas last year (end of December) and was unemployed for about 6 months. oh God, it was SIX MONTHS. only HIM knows how i felt waiting for the posting letter from KKM *taknak ingat balik please*. Jadi, nothing much to share during my long holiday or unemployment period to be exact. oh well, now i miss the long holiday since working for the last 2 months. It s been few weeks since the last i had my proper weekend. Now i know how it feels to be a grown up adult (another story to be shared!) oh, by the way, I've got posted at the hospital which is just 15 minutes drive from my house, a worth waiting indeed isn't it? wee. 

So hmm, i'l try my best to share all the unwritten stories cause i love to share moments :) 

For now, let me have a rest cause it s the first two days of complete weekend after weeks without them.*sigh*. But yeah, no matter how tough the life is, like always, live life to the fullest no matter how hard or tough it is. Okay? :) 

Bye :)

Breathing

Done with the first two papers of my final exam. Yes the FINAL ones. Another two papers then i'll be done with my studies. insyaAllah. Keep breathing. 

Hiding.

A smile is a curve that sets everything straight. But when things happened, one after another without giving you the time to heal or forget them, you just can't bear the burden, you tried to smile as usual like nothing happened but you can't hide it. Your smiles can lie but not your eyes. Only those who truly love you will realize that. This is not the time to give up or let the things destroy everything. Just a little bit more. Keep swimming cause you're nearly reaching the surface. No matter how much it has been, everything is a test from HIM. The more you hurt, the more HE loves you. 

''No fatigue, no disease, no sorrow, no saddness, no hurt, no distress befalls a Muslim, even if it was the prick he receives from a thorn, but that HE expiates some of his sins for that'' (Sahih Al-Bukhari)

** Friends are measured by the times they say the right things to you. Not by the times they say you're right.

** I trust people easily especially friends. I shared every single things with my friends when i trust them, from all the big problems to all the little things even when my ipod is not working they will be the ones that i will     tell. 

** Thank you Allah for sending me person/s that keep reminding me when I feel like I have no one to trust anymore. At least I know that there are still people out there one or two, or more that I can trust.

**Blessed** 

Strangers.

Again. Too much things to write and I ended up writing nothing here cause I'm too busy writing my final year research. Too much things I want to share about things that happened between us. Things that hurt me. Things that made me cried a lot.Things that turned me into a different person. Things that taught me how to play fire with fire when I'm too tired playing snow with fire (just because snow is more delicate than water if you get what i mean). Things that made me want to forget all the memories of friendship that we had. But yeah, now I only have to keep telling myself that things happen for a reason. People come and leave. And who knows they might come and look for you again when they realized how important you're in their lives. The only thing that I can share now is how difficult it is for me to act like a stranger and to be treated like a stranger, how I miss all the good times we had and how hard it is for me to give the fake smiles pretending that nothing had ever happen just because I don't want to hurt others cause I know the feeling of being treated like that. I want to share more but the elective and all those papers are shouting, calling me to read and write them up. Sometimes when the life is so busy, I forget how to laugh and how to smile but I will keep trying to live a life and keep breathing. Always ...

Soundless sakura.

You've built your wall so high that no one could climb it. 

*** I just realized that I havent update anything on everything since the last post i wrote. Just too busy living a life i guess.

*** It's FOUR weeks before the final exam  and THREE and HALF months before going back home.

A white love story of mine.

20th June 2013: Travelling in a white magic world, somewhere in Lawrence, Central Otago.

A classic town, Arrowtown.

In the middle of nowhere.

'' If man wishes to be sure of the road he treads on, he must close his eyes and walk in the dark ''

Like a fairy tale ;)

It's 13 of July and 3rd of Ramadhan. 

Alhamdulillah, my fourth and final ramadhan here insyaAllah. 

Alhamdulillah, everything was just fine during the break; trips, community placement, Bersatu Games 2013, etc etc.

Alhamdulillah, I had the chance to experience such a beautiful white fairy tale story. 

Alhamdulillah HE showed me what I should know for the mind to think and for the heart to feel.

Alhamdulillah, the heart knows what it really wants. 

It's the end of the Winter break, two more days to go before I start the final semester, yes FINAL semester.

All the best Fairuz!

Rama-rama

Life is too short to whine about everything.

Grow up and act like an adult cause you're not a kid anymore. 

It's 1st of Syaaban, a month before Ramadhan. The time is flying too fast :/

Butterflies, stop fluttering. My tummy is too small for you to flutter around. Get out of it and fly. Freely. The world is beautiful and dont hide yourselves from it. 

Tomorrow is the last paper, the oral exam and I'll be done. Done with the second last semester. 

*Fluttering*